August 17, 2008, 7:55 pm : How to be great…
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I don’t imagine that anyone really thinks as a child that “one day I want to grow up and be a loser” but somehow that happens to so many people. What do I mean by a loser? Well, basically, anyone who thinks they are. It really isn’t up to me or to anyone else to say who is a loser and who isn’t and there isn’t a certain way to become one either. It’s definitely something that people think of themselves often even if they are incredibly successful by average standards.
If I were to define what being great means, I would say it is to do something above and beyond, outside the box, that can shape your own life and the lives of those around you in a positive and powerful way. All of the “greats” out there have typically done something along these lines. But then there are those that quietly do this, that don’t get recognized for it, that are equally great to those that have.
Either way, I wonder what I could do to be great. The reason that someone would want to be great varies among different people of course. For instance, the only reason why I would want to be great is so that not only I affect people in a positive way that makes a large impact on their lives, but it would be so that when all is said and done, they will know that it was because of the love I have for them because of the love that God has for them. Philippians 4:13 says “I can do all things, through Him who strengthens me” and I wish that I could draw from that power more often because when I feel weak, I try so hard to remember that I can do anything because of Him. Alot of people don’t think its PC (politically correct) to talk about God anymore, especially if you are such a horrible person like me. I mean who am I to talk about God, I’m no priest 
I just wonder how many people honestly feel like they are going to be “great” in their lifetime. I think if people did the whole quarter in a barrel thing, instead of trying to fill it all up at once, they’d get alot closer to being great real fast. It’s when we overwhelm ourselves by laying the whole gig on at one time that we cause problems for ourselves. Nobody is THAT great.
So I’m going to take a quarter, throw it in the barrel, one quarter at a time, and maybe I’ll learn along the way what it really is to be great. I just hope that in the mean time, those around me, especially my kids, my wife, my family, can see the greatness of God in me, even when I fail miserably at it on my own.
Til next time…
August 14, 2008, 4:24 pm : How you say…. Post?
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I’m working on alot of stuff these days, but I’m going to squeeze in one more thing for me to do, and that is actually start posting here on my blog. As you can see I gave it a facelift, going with a bit of a brighter approach to things. It’s lofty and that is to go with what I hope to post about. Right now, I’m tossing around a few ideas as to what I will post about on a mostly regular basis, but I’m sure some will find it entertaining and some may not.
Well, as for Emma and Ava, they are really enjoying the age they are at where they can get into everything and throw things, including the occasional temper fit. It’s all manageable though. As for Ashton, I wouldn’t know how she is, haven’t heard from her in almost 2 weeks and she is in Lubbock with her mom’s side of the family.
Well the past week has been spent moving things around, getting situated here in the small cabin in the woods. Getting my mindset in the right direction for preparations to build our cabin that we will be in while we build our house. This cabin we are in right now is only very temporary. You can check out more stuff about this on www.3treesgottago.com if you are a member. If you aren’t, then well, you aren’t.
So check back tomorrow, as I’m sure I’ll begin my posting on a usual basis.
December 4, 2006, 1:29 am : MY TWO BABIES
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I am overwhelmed to say the least. I don’t really even know how to express what it feels like to know we have twins on the way. I will post more soon, I’m working alot lately and taking care of Sarah while she gets her butt kicked by the twins.
November 3, 2006, 7:24 pm : Bum Car Buyer
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So when I sold cars for a living, there was a guy that I worked with that told me a story about a bum car buyer. We’ll call him Bob Beemer.
Bob Beemer decided to go shop for a car since he had grown tired of his ‘98 Lincoln Town Car. He was a 55 yr old retired army veteran who went on to run his own local Hardware company. He basically was set for the rest of his life. He wore tattered clothes alot because of his job, but decided against dressing up to go buy a car today. He went to a Toyota dealership in North Texas and decided he was going to get a foreign make this time around. After kicking tires for a few minutes, a salesman we’ll call Joe, came to the rescue. Only, instead of asking Bob Beemer if he wanted any assistance in looking for a new car, he told him that he was welcome to look around, but that he would go get one of the Used Car sales guys to help him get into a good car that’s affordable and more in his “bracket.” So, being the passive natured man that Bob Beemer was, he ignored the rude statement from Joe, and continued looking at the new cars. After about 15 minutes, a used car salesman came and spoke to Bob Beemer and told him that the used car lot was over on the west side and he would be glad to show him over there. Bob Beemer went along with the used car salesman and decided he would go along for the ride that he was about to be taken on. Bob Beemer ended up taking a test drive in a ‘99 Honda Accord. Nice car, but with 52k miles on it, it wasn’t something Bob had his heart set on. Bob asked the used car salesman during the test drive if he could test drive the new Toyota Avalon. The used car salesman kind of shrugged his shoulders while telling Bob that he would be happy to let him drive one, but “Bob, lemme tell ya, the Avalon is a great car, but it’s also a great price, are you going to be trading anything today?” Bob replied, “no, but I would like to go ahead and see if the Avalon fits me better.” Relunctantly, the used car salesman returned Bob to Joe’s department. Bob sat waiting for over half an hour while Joe had other things to do. Finally, when Joe came out to greet Bob again, he put a sheet of paper in front of him and said “Mr. Beemer, you are gonna have to fill out this credit application before I can take you on a test drive in that Avalon.” Bob replied “why?” “Well, because that piece of equipment costs alot and we need to know where you intend to back up the purchase of that car if you were to have an accident in it.” Bob looked at Joe for a moment pausing to allow the right words to come out of his mouth and then he said “Joe, let me talk to a man who wants to sell me a car today, or I’ll go on my merry way.”
Joe threw his hands up and walked away and you could hear under his breath “what’s with this guy?” Bob had a smile on the inside, knowing this man was a complete idiot. When Joe returned with his sales manager, the manager spoke to Bob in a very degrading manner. “Bob Beemer, we’ll be willing to sell you a car when you are willing run your credit with us, we don’t have the time to entertain people with test drives all day unless we know they are capable of even buying a car.” Bob reached in his coat pocket, and pulled out 40,000.00 in cash and laid it on the table and said to the sales manager “I bet you didn’t think you’d see 40k come out of this old torn up jacket, but I never thought I’d be judged for it either.” Bob Beemer left the dealership that day, and so did Joe and the sales manager for losing that sale. The ower of the North Texas dealership witnessed the last few minutes of their encounter from a distance. Bob was called the next day from the owner of the dealership and was told the men who had “helped” him were let go and that his business would be appreciated. They offered Bob 5k off the sticker of any car of his choice.
I can’t stand it when people judge others, but the sad part is, I have caught myself doing the same thing from time to time and it makes me sick to my stomach when I realize I lowered myself that much to do such a thing. It’s a long story, so I hope I didn’t bore anyone to tears.
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October 30, 2006, 5:58 pm : PROGESTERONE
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NICE..! I had a conversation with the nurse for Sarah’s Dr. and the results on her progesterone levels came back with a 28… The nurse said they are happy to see 15 or 20, but 28 is skyrocket, so we are good to go on that so far! Just thought I would put my enthusiasm in the form of a journal entry today! WOOOHOOO !
October 30, 2006, 1:59 am : Imposters
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Wow… today some crazy person decided they had no more time on their hands than to make a profile on MySpace using a picture of me, and guess who their 2nd friend was? A made up crazy name of another myspace profile that was using a picture of my wife and then there is this other guy that is pretending to actually be married to my wife and he’s telling other people and showing pictures as if it’s all true….
What else… there’s the pc…. the internet…. I despise it sometimes.
So, today Sarah took another pregnancy test just for fun, to see how fast the lines showed up, and how dark they get. It’s refreshing to see a reminder anyway. I love knowing that we’ll have a little one in due time. For this, having a child with a woman that is the most incredible thing to walk the Earth, I know I am blessed.
Incredible….
October 15, 2006, 12:46 am : Learning all over again
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So at the age of 30, I have an important announcement! I don’t know crap! Seriously thats completely true though.
I have always thought I was pretty good at communicating with people, and understanding what they were trying to communicate with me, but even now, I find myself learning that I will never really be as good at it as I ought to be. Let me break this one down for you:
My wife is a woman. Surprised?
I haven’t spent alot of my life around any decent women, except for my sisters, and my mom. Now I’m with a completely amazing woman, and I still manage to say and handle things in a way that ends up hurting feelings, seems prideful, even arrogant at times. I told Sarah that if there was a way I could really effectively show her how much I love her, and how much I value her, how smart I think she is, talented, funny, and that I admire her as a person more than any person I have ever known, then I’d tell her with my life, my actions, every single day. But unfortunately I don’t do that the way I’d like to. It’s very hard sometimes to really grasp how to be sensitive to someone elses feelings and needs the way I should. It’s retarded that it could be difficult when you love them beyond comprehension. I guess that is because of what being sensitive really involves. Sometimes it means that I need to hold back my opinions and just listen. Other times its just expressions and body language that can do the damage. Anyway, I have alot to learn, and more times than not, I get frustrated with myself that I have such a hard time communicating or just being a good husband.
Anywho.. there are alot of things about myself that I would like to better, and change, and I only hope that I can move forward with those things and not be a slacker with being a better husband, friend, and boss (work).
On another note.. I’m so ready for the holidays. I have always loved this time of year, and this year is especially awesome because it will be the first time I will share the holidays with my new family, that being Sarah. We are going to Washington, and of course I’m looking forward to being able to share the holidays with an entirely different family as well.
I realize this is a bit sappy of a post, but it’s been awhile since I have posted and I’m just catching up on the things that really stick out for me.
I am already gearing up for the tradition NEW YEARS resolutions. Never have really done anything like that, but I feel the need to take advantage of the idea, in hopes it will help me be more responsible to myself. I’d like to see improvements in myself, and to reach some significant goals that I will lay out for myself.
On to baby stuff.. I’m praying that God will grant us with a healthy start to a healthy pregnancy. I am learning that there are things I took for granted before when Sarah and I were expecting. This is one of those things that I take very seriously.. it’s like even though I know that miscarriage can’t realistically be attributed to something we did or did not do, I feel like I took it for granted, and that is more than enough to know that I do not want to do that again. It’s really crazy how much of a miracle conception and the life of a baby is at all. It’s amazing how often it happens, and that it happens at all. I’m just taking this time to listen to God and better myself as a husband so that I can be a better father.
This being said… I love my wife, more than my own life. She is the miracle that I can’t believe sometimes, she is just too good to be true. I think that’s my problem sometimes. I am still in shock that someone like her can happen to me. Wow…
September 26, 2006, 9:10 pm : This Hurts
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Today is the official 3 way headache day. TJ, Sarah, and I all have severe headaches. Who knows what it could be, but its wrong.. and I don’t like these kinds of headaches. I’m updating this because it’s been a while and I want to make sure people know I’m still in the game… cuz OMG, I like have so many blog friends right?
Life is good. We are not pregnant however, and that isn’t so fun. I can’t wait til Sarah gets a positive. I’m in limbo right now, hanging in between this and that, and who knows what.
So what about theirkind… what morons have I seen or ran across lately. I could go on about a few, but that would be diving into time I don’t wish to spend on someone like this. However, there was this one guy… Traffic was nuts this evening, on the way back from dropping Ashton off, against her wishes.. 
anyway, this guy in a little car was coming up behind me so I switched lanes and he went around me and then cut me off, like almost clipped the front end of Sarah’s flippin’ sweet ride…. there was no need. He was doing it to be a jackass. I can’t stand it when people are mean for no reason…
Ashton cried today when I dropped her off. I mentioned to her mom that she needed to go to the dentist and I was spoken to like I had no business asking her to get her to the dentist, because she had a baby and apparently that might get in the way of Ashton going to the dentist. I don’t know, and I don’t care. Just another moron thing to do.
What else… Oh yeah… I have to get back to work and then try to work out this headache. I will leave more about nothing later …
September 11, 2006, 2:11 pm : ClearBlue… Clear Schmoo
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Wow… this is really the example of what I find so peculiar about people. IF ANYONE CAN EXPLAIN THE THINKING BEHIND THIS ONE, PLEASE SEND ME AN EMAIL AND TELL ME HOW IT IS.. because I thought this one is incredible.
Clearblue Ovulation Detection tests… Fun stuff. For those of you that don’t know, LH hormones are produced in HIGHER AMOUNTS when a woman nears ovulation each month, and this test is designed to detect higher levels in LH hormones so that a woman can have a 2-3 day window of knowing when she is ovulating. Now, on with what the problem is:
This test has very CLEAR instructions on how to use it. But what separates this test from other brands, such as First Response, or even the good ole’ store brands from Walgreen’s and CVS? They would want you to believe this is what makes this product so much more a hands down “I’m buying that one, I’d be stupid not to” product.
First let me show you the product: (click on the thumb to see the full size image in a new window)
This is what you see when you get the results… Simple… Smile is positive, No smile is negative:
And now the kicker:
Do you see what I mean? What kind of laboratory specialists are these guys that need a smiley face… is that all it takes? Can I be a lab specialist? I could get paid serious money to be one of them if all I have to do is know the difference between a smiley face and not a smiley face.
This is just good humor, but I wonder who really thought of this one… Where did this even come from?
Anyway… now on with life…
Today is day 1 of the ovulation time. This is good because I am excited at the thought of there being a possibility of a life growing inside my wife. I know I sound poetic sometimes, but I seem to express my deepest feelings on this blog. I’m going to get busy now 
September 6, 2006, 1:57 pm : DSL
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Damn Slow Loadtimes … thats a better meaning for DSL than : “Digital Subscriber Line. DSL is a modem technology that transforms ordinary phone lines (also known as “twisted copper pairs”) into high-speed digital lines for ultra-fast Internet access.”
RIGHHHHT… see the thing is, DSL IS on a twisted copper pair line… its old as crap.. phone line technology… Cable is so good because its based on fiber optics… anyway, its horrible that people pay what they do for DSL. People say its cheaper, it’s really not. Yeah you CAN pay less than cable, but thats also a very very low DSL speed.. if you want AS CLOSE AS YOU CAN GET to cable speeds, you pay just as much as cable if not more. It’s friggin retarded. I hate it. It’s a ripoff. DSL never does as good as cable, its impossible for it to. And yet I pay the price. Because it’s not so easy to get cable service in some places. At the office… wow.. the WORST place to have DSL, because I need the speed and effeciency of cable, or even FIOS (Verizon equivalent to cable).. I hate my job right now because of this… I feel like a snail racing against a bunch of horses for the win. It’s beating me down and making me feel like a loser. .. great.. Sarah just msged me and told me “it’s nice outside, I hope it stays like this” …… Because I’ll be able to enjoy the nice weather? no.. lol… i won’t, at least for now… too much work to do. I guess I needn’t complain… having alot to do is good because that means I will make plenty of money to take care of the things I want to take care of, and not just lawyer fees going towards defending my business against someone who thinks they made alot of money but didn’t get it.
Other than that, life is good. I’ll be seeing you?